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So it’s been a while since I updated… and I figure that perhaps it’s time to write something, though I’m not really sure what to write. I’ve discovered the wonderful thing of pinterest, and I have to say I love it. Though all the easy projects that are on there, that I say I have to try, will probably never be done because well I am pretty lazy, and I come home from work and all I want to do is crash.
Is it my depression? Probably. What do I need to do to get over it? Who knows… I just feel so.. blargh lately. There’s nothing that really make me depressed, in all honesty I should be really happy. I have a loving husband, a few really good friends, an awesome family, I own my home and it’s not getting foreclosed on, I own the two cars in my driveway, and I’m keeping my head above water. As long as I keep ignoring all those medical bills.
Yet, I still feel depressed. Is there something out there that will fix it? Probably not, it’s probably chemical, or at least need to come to grips even more that I really will never have my own children. Most days, I can handle it, most days it doesn’t even phase me, but I find myself looking at my surgery scars lately and sighing. Physically my life is SOOOO much better since I’ve had my hysterectomy. I’m no longer completely disabled whenever my periods start have hardly missed a day of work since then. Which is a minor miracle for me.
More than likely I probably need to go to a therapist, but I HAAAATTE talking about my feelings. I’m so very much like my father in that aspect. My folks always taught us, just deal with it, move on. Don’t get hung up on things, and in classic Burchill fashion I’ll grumble and make a face and walk away. Unless I haven’t had my anti-anxiety pills for a while, and if I have an attack the tears and emotions and words just come flying out of me.
Wedding planning is going well, and I have everything pretty planned, just need to get a few more decorations, and pay for everything. That’s the hard part, paying for everything. I’ve done really well, I have a $5000 dollar budget for the wedding, though about 2300 of it is paid for my by folks which will be paid back slowly over time.
There’s stuff going on in the news that just makes me roll my eyes lately. People are just getting all bent out of shape over the littlest things. We had brunch after church on Sunday with some friends of ours, and we started talking about the presidential campaign. The thing that irks me is all the e-mails and rumors about this that and the other thing about all the candidates. My mother in law and father are prime examples. Just because it comes in an e-mail, does not make it true!! In fact if it does come in a forwarded e-mail, I would be extra cautious because of the simple fact that people are stupid. A person is smart, but people as a whole are stupid. The whole mob mentality thing, where people justify themselves because someone else did it or sent it, look if you forward an e-mail with crap about Romney or Obama, that means you believe it. Take 5 mins, and do some research and see if it really is true! Heck, my father with a master’s degree still believes that Obama swore in on a copy of the Karan, heck 5 mins after looking up things on the internet find out that another republican senator was sworn in on the Karan, and Obama swore in on the Bible in both the senate and as the president.
And to be honest with you, to me, it doesn’t matter who is president, because The House and Senate are so bogged down in partisan bull crap that nothing gets done anymore. Each person in the House and Senate are so worried that come next election cycle their opponents will look at them and say, “See he compromised, he’s not a real democrat/republican don’t vote for him, vote for me!” It’s stupid, and it’s sending this country right to hell in a handbasket.
You’re supposed to be there for the people, to find the best possible solution for all parties involved, and guess what that means? You have to compromise sometimes, heck you might need to compromise all the time. Republicans, democrats, tea party, etc etc etc, we all live in this country together. For the past 100 years we’ve been the epitome of power and strength in the world, and now we’re like the laughing stock, while other countries are taking our jobs and our security. So grow some balls, and figure out how to make things work. Plan and simple.
